What Lisa Says

又有一顆要根管
雖然早已心知肚明
但今天倒是挺乾脆就決定要做
大概是因為反正神經早死光抽掉也不痛吧
不如早點讓它美一點
雖然要花好幾大洋
但好像不會心痛？
花錢消災嗎？
那希望我之後會順一點~

Finally finish watching 3rd season. The ending of 3rd season, what a surprise!!! I can't believe that George didn't pass the exam and Christina didn't getting marry.

There are many characters in this show, my favorite is Izzie, I guess. I don't like Meredith, because she always sad. I like Izzie because she's a very sensibility person, but I can't believe that she fall in love with George so soon.

I like Addison, she's cute and pretty. She is sad, too, because who she loves didn't love her. She always meet wrong guy in wrong time. I like her most, but I heard the news that Addison would leave from 4th season, it's so sad, but also good, because she has her own show.

Christina, always focus on what she interesting, me too. So we're so same. For now, I need to focus on my studying - the way to PhD - and my teaching. School, family, cat would be my life. I don't care about love. Maybe I just pretend I don't need love, but I do need one to love or give me love. I hope I can call some one in mid-night and he doesn't angry. He would listen carefully and gives me in good opinions. I can call my dear friend Edith, but she's married, I can't do that.

I always say that I don't care, but maybe I'm lying to myself. Sometime in the late night, I don't know what I busy for. I can talk to no one, that's so sad.

I think If Burke didn't push Christina to fall in, maybe Christina would not fall in love and get marry. But...when Christina finally found there is one man meaning something to her, it's too late. She thinks she didn't push Burke away, but she did.

Maybe me too, push someone away and think no one love me.

壓力大為什麼不能有別的反應呢？
為什麼我都是吃東西、酗咖啡、逛網拍、敗家、打電動？
再敗下去，我的旅費是要存到哪時啊~
不行，一定得改成：作筆記、看書、寫論文才好...

os:果然只是妄想...

其實我自己知道我一直不是一個好女兒
從小任性
脾氣也不太好
有時會對娘發點起床氣
或者不理睬爹【因為他的某些作為我不認同】
有時甚至覺得自己愛貓比愛家人多
雖然有時會內疚
但還是再犯

我真是一個沒血沒淚沒心肝
無情的人吶。

在背包客棧上向人家問了一些關於 Bath 的事，記在這兒，隨時準備出發。準備旅行，就是這麼快樂！雖然不知那時成行，但我知道我一定會成行的，Someday！

巴斯大小事：
www.thisisbath.co.uk 、 www.visitbath.co.uk

一日旅行團：
http://www.madmaxtours.co.uk/
預約→打電話即可，寫email好像也可以，到了集合當天，直接給現金給司機，不要在information centre 訂，會先收兩三鎊的訂金。

吃在巴斯：
火車站往前走的一家泰國餐廳 Mai Thai
靠河邊的一家pub 的Sunday roast
劇院附近有一家Iguana
Sally Lunn 最好是中午十一點半以前，當午餐吃，有甜的，也有鹹的作法。

住在巴斯：
Lower Birstol Road (車站後方河邊 有一些B&B，雙人房約五十，單人約25~30磅。

補充：
記得帶泳裝，可以享受英國唯一的溫泉。
http://visitbath.co.uk/site/things-to-do/thermae-bath-spa-p26231

I Carry Your Heart With Me
----by e. e. cummings

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it
(anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

One Art
-----by Elizabeth Bishop

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

---Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

「我悲傷太久了，我渴求其他女人一生中至少經歷一次的東西。」

女人的一生宛如「一幢有著許多房間的大宅」，沿路行去，房門深鎖，「最深處的房間，那最最神聖之地，靈魂獨坐，等待永不到來的腳步。」

──Edith Wharton

上周三
屬於我的那一天
提起勇氣去退了一門課
僑生的課雖然很有趣
能跟不同國家的人接觸
可是卻也很累

為了接收衝堂的學生
搞得我的班程度不一
必須要用三份講義
每一次上課都是從第一分鐘講到最後一分鐘還超過
為了就是要擠出短短的20-30分鐘下課時間
教其他六個用不同講義的學生
雖然聽到他們說覺得自己有進步而開心
但我真的累了
也該認真寫論文了
加上老師想退休
趁此時機奮力一搏
否則可能會被踢出師門

為此去退課卻被說
當初我自己要選僑生現在又要退
(當初一學期跟一年的課要選，任何人都會選一年的吧~)
我不要課不行嗎？
你的學生教得累我就不累嗎？
我知道當時很被看重的樣子
破例給了我三門課(一門是代課~)
可是現在我想好好寫論文也不行嗎？
還是我該退的不是僑生而是別門？
我不能再選一次嗎？
把比較多節、錢比較多的讓出來也不行嗎？

如果課因此都被收回
我也認了
這就是學術圈的另一面。

基本上
這邊要用來碎碎唸
唸一些不想被認識的人知道的事
研究生就是這麼苦悶吧
我想
但我還有很多夢
只好一邊寫論文一邊發洩了

幸好可以用中文tag
掛在這邊好像多少會有亂碼
沒辦法
我想要有一個在英國的家
就算是網路上的也好~

Fight!!!